Lyrics Critique - It doesnt have a name yet? nor a genre

First time i have ever written anything


I may be scared but for the new life
The one know one knows
And i hope i will never live
Not just yet, not ready yet

We took the risk
Not yet to survive
Now i just wanna lay
Lay with you
Show me your love all day
Oh babe you’re the reason
I do the things i do

I’ll be taking my pills
To get the thrills
To see the chills i could never get
Cause its better then the life
Better than the one that i’m ruining
The one don’t care about yet

I’m worth so much more
So I’m going to ruin it all
To the unnamed one hopefully not growing
I don’t want you at all
A faceless fear
A senseless tear
To me your nothing
Nothing at all

Taking my pills
To get the thrills
To see the chills i could never get
Cause its better then the life
Better then the one i’m ruining
Just to see you not here at all