Love of a Lifetime - lyric critique- rock (kind of lengthy)

by Charlie
(Carterville, Illinois)

it's been such a long time
I should be already over you
but you're still in my dreams
everyday and night
why did your heart
have to take a flight,
on mine
I think about you all the time
I wish I never would have crossed that line
but no matter what
I can't get you off my mind
now time's gettin so damn hard
without you in my arms
I'm trying to hold on, to a dream
but without you, loves not what it seems
cus I never wanted it to end
and now I have nothin to mend
my broken heart

right from the start
I gave you my heart
but it didn't work
so now I'm in the dark
I hope it soon will pass
cus I loved you so
and I never wanted to go
cus you're the girl
I wanted for all times
and I would sit praying
you would be mine

since the day you walked out my door
my heart has been lying on the floor
since the day you said goodbye
my soul has done nothin but cry
you're always in my heart
and on my mind
I think about you all the time
I love you, and I always will
and when you're not in my arms
I become very ill
thinking how things used to be
when you were so in love with me
remembering back to the days
when I had it made in the shade
remembering all the times
when you said,
you would always be mine
remembering all the times we had
makes me feel, so damn sad

we've been through some goodtimes
and some bad
some were happy
and some were sad
but I wish you were here for me to hold
cus without your love
it's so damn cold
no matter where we go
no matter what we do
I want you to know
I'll never forget you

without you here
I feel so alone
I start to shed a tear

every time we talk on the phone
I've had a broken heart
ever since we had to part
I try to think I don't care
but I really do
cus you ripped my heart, right in two

lying in this bed at night
tears rolling down my cheeks
thinking how our love used to be
makes me feel, so damn weak
they say there's someone for everyone
and I've done found mine
but I let you go
the one that made me feel so fine
and now I don't know
what I'm gonna do
without all the love from you
I never meant to hurt you
cus baby, I'm not that way
I try to say I'm sorry
but you only make me pay
was it all just one big lie
or was it true
when you said,
I love you
we used to kick back
with a six pack
and the radio
where we didn't need no place to go
we said we would be together
till the end of time
now I just sit here
wishing you were still mine
you told me you loved me
but I don't know if that's true
but even if it isn't
I know I still love you

the first time I looked in your eyes
I swore I was in paradise
can't you see, you hold the key
to my heart
and you kept me from falling apart
I loved our little walks
and bedroom talks
I think about you all the time
I think about you with every line

I never wanted to lose you
the only love I've ever found
I lost the love of a lifetime
and now I don't know where I'm bound
it was a love that was true
you were in my heart all the time
but now you say it's over
and I don't know what to do
and now you're always on my mind
I think about you everyday
even though you're a million miles away